"Sometimes while I'm talking to God, He'll show me something about myself in such a way that I have to laugh at my own humanity and how funny I must look to Him." - Donna

Donna...just found your blog...I absolutely love it! And I love your singing! I'm at work right now and it was just exactly what I needed to hear to help me make it through tonight! Thanks for your ministry here!
- Robert

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Monday, May 09, 2005

Green-Eyed Monster


A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones. - Proverbs 14:30

Recently I received a book by snail mail - a gift from an author I met on-line. I took the book downstairs and propped it up on the bookrack on my new treadmill. I opened it up being careful not to break the spine. I love the way a new book feels. I love the way I feel - excited about the treasure hidden between the covers.

And what a treasure it was. The writer included an entire book's worth of information in the first chapter. My thirty-minute workout passed by before I knew it.

While I savored the spiritual morsels in the book, I had to quash an uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach - something like literary nausea. Why would I ever try to write another word? Who was I to think I could communicate deep spiritual insights? I'm shallow.

As a first step to rid myself of this illness, I sent an email to the author praising her book. Then I prayed. And prayed some more. If I am to continue to write, I must believe God has a message contained in this container of clay that only I can write. I asked God to replace jealousy with trust. I do trust in His plan, His will, and His purpose for me, and my plea is for strength and wisdom to build on His blueprint for my life.

Admitting my feelings represents a healthy step in overcoming them. James wrote, "But if you have bitter envying and strife in your hearts, glory not, and lie not against the truth" (James 3: 14).

Soon it wasn't difficult to admit I would not have wanted to write the book that induced such envy. Many tears and heartache had been experienced before the author wrote the first word. Deep insight came from passing through deep valleys. Mountaintop highs resulted in magnificent praise.

Paul wrote, "Let us not desire vainglory, provoking one another, envying one another" (Gal. 5:26).

When I read beautiful writing, I desire to give genuine compliments to the author, and praise to God Who inspired the author.

Do you ever find yourself in this same trap? Maybe the ministry isn't writing, but singing or teaching or preaching.

Let us praise God at all times for His goodness and His faithfulness to inspire beauty - whether it comes though us or someone else.

I have green eyes. I don't want them to be green with envy.

Prayer: Lord, I thank You for the burden to work for You, and ask that You anoint me to do the work You have for me. Help me to praise others and encourage them in their ministries. In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen.

3 comments:

Queen Jaw Jaw said...

A very good lesson for us all Donna. I know whenever I start to allow the GIM to rear it's ugly head, I remind myself of a passage from the poem "Desiderata" which goes, "If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself." In other words, the world has room for us all. This small passage gently calms my worried mind. JJ

Anonymous said...

Lovely and timely reminder, Donna about jealousy and its affects. As you wrote, we all suffer from this once in awhile but to acknowledge it, repent of the jealousy and know that we all have different talents---these are the plus factors that help so much in overcoming it and then, praising the talented person.

Wonderful article!

Toni Star

Janet Seever said...

Donna,

I appreciated your devotional. Someone from InScribe Christian Writer's Fellowship quoted some lines from it as posted on the Master's Artists blog, and this started a discussion on envy among members of our e-list. Writers wrote about how they felt after reading someone's excellent writing and wondering how their own compared.

We all do it. But God has given each of us a story only we can tell.

May the Lord continue to bless you on your excellent writing.

Blessings,
Janet

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